Hello Summer!!

I am officially, 100% finished with my first year of university. All my essays turned in, all my classes over, the end. I have been so incredibly lucky to have had such a great year. Honestly – I’ve met the most amazing people, whom I already miss terribly. It’s funny to look back at where I started, barely eight months ago. I was petrified to begin. I wonder what orientation day me would have thought of the me that I am today. She’d certainly have questions, that’s for sure. And I think the thing that I would answer with is: It’s not easy, but most of the time it turns out better than you ever thought it would. Also, it’s way more fun than you imagined, so go easy on yourself, OK?

Funny how time gives us perspective on things. Of course I have regrets – there are things I could have done differently. But on the whole, I think I did a smashing job flailing my way through uni, america and everything else. Like being a real proper adult – EEK.

Speaking of being a real proper adult – I cannot believe this, but I’m actually staying in my own apartment for the summer. That’s right – staying in america, without any safety net of college. I’ve got some great roommates and am really looking forward to making the best of my internship. I’m researching a lady who worked for the Red Cross in WW2 called Sue. A couple of hours ago I just read a hilarious letter where she describes how her undergarments were stolen by the french maid. That’s not even covering the delightful correspondence between her and her family. It feels creepy sometimes – this is a person’s life I am reading, after all. But most of the time it feels insanely cool. I get a whole new perspective into the war. Alright, enough history geeking for one day.

Still working on driving without feeling like I’m having a panic attack behind the wheel. Driving is the worst. Why didn’t I pick a country or state or city with good public transportation? Bad show, Past Me.

Also, obsessed with the show Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries. Who amongst us doesn’t want to be a Phryne when they grow up? A fast-talking, feminist, gun-toting, fashionista, lady detective with irrepressible humor? Sign me up for the starter course! The second I finish you can expect a more in depth review.

There are good things ahead – I may be done with first year, but I’m certainly not done with the summer. I’ll keep you posted on future events – and on whether or not Sue ever recovers her stolen underwear.

 

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It’s the Final(s) Countdown

Finals week – EEK.  Two words that strike fear into the hearts of many a college student. So while I’m buckling down under the weight of papers and tests, I decided to day dream a little bit about what this summer is going to bring/things that are making me happy right now.

-I’ve been listening to this 80’s mix for the last several days. I feel like I’m going to a modern 80’s prom, if that makes sense. Two days ago my roommate walked in on my impromptu dance party, which was par for the course. Sometimes a girl just wants to get her groove on – https://8tracks.com/sashayed/beating-hearts.

-In less than 8 days I will officially be DONE with first year. I actually cannot believe how fast the time has flown. I’ve made amazing friends and I feel like I’ve grown so so much as a human being.

-Working on recording some music with a friend. The tracks we are producing sound KILLER, and I’m so excited to share them.

-Going to be attending a film screening that I was lucky enough to work on. This will be the first film I’ve ever helped out with, so I’m super excited to see what it looks like.

-I have a huge list of books that I’m planning on reading and reviewing, so watch this space. A couple of titles that I’m looking forward to – Shadow scale, All Roads Lead to You, Yes Please.

-Planning my trip to Europe!! I’ve been scouring the internet like crazy, looking for fun things to do. If anyone has any suggestions, please drop a comment below.

-That’s about it for now. Day dreaming about the summer ahead – and going to the beach!

Bare Feet in the Grass is a Good Thing

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I’m a little worried about posting this, but it’s something that I think is important if discombobulated. Moving away from the beaten path isn’t easy sometimes. There are days when I wake up and don’t really know what I’m supposed to be doing. I feel like nowadays, we’re told that we can do so much that we feel obliged to do everything. That’s something I feel a lot at college. I live in an environment full of amazing people doing amazing things, and sometimes the pressure to go go go gets to be a lot.

I know that I have moments where I feel completely overwhelmed at everything. When I feel like the only thing I want to do is hide under the covers or run away. It’s incredibly unrealistic of me to think that I can be at every event or do every activity. That’s just not how it works, I need time to slow down and breath.

Right now, the attitude on campus is a pressure keg of anxiety about the future, stress over exams and a kind of last-resort gritting of teeth. I don’t know if my stress level has ever been higher. College is amazing, but sometimes the feelings can be amplified because there isn’t any way to get away from them. Everyone is writing papers and studying while also making sure to attend events about career choices, meet-ups, extra lectures, parties and sports games.

It’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately – how much I need to slow down. I can’t remember the last time I just sat down to think about something that wasn’t related to what work I had coming or the next project to think about. Just thinking – away from people, my phone or anything. I also need to think about what’s important. Taking a nap instead of studying isn’t the end of the world. Taking an hour off to hang out with my friends won’t mean that I won’t do well on my courses. Perspective is necessary and needed.

There’s a lot to get through in the next two weeks – finals are coming. I have a ballroom show tomorrow. Then internships and summer jobs, and who knows what else.

Yesterday a mom sent my friend a message that said ‘bare feet in the earth is a good thing’.

That’s what I’m going to do today – stand in the sun, plant my bare feet in the earth, and breath.